The Truth
I have to be honest here. I had some comments saying what a good job I had done on my blog here, but really it was all Erin in Russia. I probably could have figured it all out, but we all know I like it when people do things for me right. The big manipulator. Also it wouldn't have been the funnest job for me to make those changes, so that is my excuse. One person commented on why would I want to take those pictures off. But if that person (who chose to be annonymous) can't figure that one out then I don't think trying to explain it would work either.
Anyhow, thank you Erin for all your help, I enjoy my blog a lot with the new pics and the others gone.
More truth. I feel the reality of what is going on a lot more heavy these days. Mostly ideas and dreams gone. Rejection and being alone. My gut reaction is to go out and not be alone, I mean after all this is not my fault or choice. But I would like to try and come out better on the other side of this and not just fall back into old patterns and pitfalls. Getting too old for that now. My teammates never let me forget how old I am. We just found out the other day that I was a counsellor for one of my teammates when he was in grade six. But he was an old grade sixer, I remind him.
Anyway, it is tough most of the time, but my school and basketball provide good escapes. I have tried other ones as well, but after taking looks in the mirror I am cutting those out. Pray for that if you will.
Ending truth,
I am amazingly greatful for my family and friends who have been nothing but there for me. They have helped me with whatever I have needed. Comfort, caring, shower curtains. Everything. Even confronting me and calling me out. All good things. So thank you all very much.
Anyhow, thank you Erin for all your help, I enjoy my blog a lot with the new pics and the others gone.
More truth. I feel the reality of what is going on a lot more heavy these days. Mostly ideas and dreams gone. Rejection and being alone. My gut reaction is to go out and not be alone, I mean after all this is not my fault or choice. But I would like to try and come out better on the other side of this and not just fall back into old patterns and pitfalls. Getting too old for that now. My teammates never let me forget how old I am. We just found out the other day that I was a counsellor for one of my teammates when he was in grade six. But he was an old grade sixer, I remind him.
Anyway, it is tough most of the time, but my school and basketball provide good escapes. I have tried other ones as well, but after taking looks in the mirror I am cutting those out. Pray for that if you will.
Ending truth,
I am amazingly greatful for my family and friends who have been nothing but there for me. They have helped me with whatever I have needed. Comfort, caring, shower curtains. Everything. Even confronting me and calling me out. All good things. So thank you all very much.
posted by Peter James at 1:46 PM
7 Comments:
We love you, Pete. I had planned to drop off some pork chops and scalloped potatoes with a note saying "Keep on keepin' on." but alas Jason ate it all. :) Is it still the thought that counts? Anyway, I like your honesty. If you every need anything, you know you just have to ask, right?
Hang in there Pete - we will be checking out your blog almost daily when we are home! Thanks for your honesty!
I cannot imagine the rollercoaster you have been on Peter. One comfort I can share with you that I have learned through my different trials - for every negative that I have had to face, a positive outcome had occurred. It just might take some time for that positive to show. The other thing is that if you have the three F's in your life, you can basically see your challenge through. The three F's are Family, Friends and Faith. It's a great three-punch for sure. Just like Shanna said in her comment - we love you and we are here for you. I will continue to keep you in my thoughts and prayers that each day will be a better one. Take care Peter and thank you for sharing your thoughts with us.
"I pray (have been praying) that from His glorious, unlimited resources He will give you mighty inner strength through His Holy Spirit" Ephesians 3:14-19
And I've been praying, or thinking rather, please please don't fall back into your old patterns, it'd be such a waste. I know you will be much better off if you don't, but I also know we're a stubborn bunch. However you are growing older and wiser and good job on your recent decisions to preserve your life and liver! Anyhow, love you Peter, always thankful I have you as part of my family and never want to see you hurt again, but I imagine you will be, but maybe not, God has mercy on some people right?!! Anyhow, blog does look good, way to go Erin. And Peter...take care of yourself, good care of yourself.
Love Sara
Thanks for your honesty...it is encouraging in itself, even if you hadn't said you were doing your best to come out of this better. Love you lots, Manda
....... I've been thinking about you LOTS lately Pete. The realization of your situation hitting hard. My heart aches ... and will continue to ache ... but I am encouraged by what I've read here. Encouraged by your ever increasing maturity. I am so proud of you Pete. You are showing yourself to be a man. A good man. Or maybe a better description would be 'godly man'. I love you and will stand by you in prayer. I too am honoured to have you as my brother and thank God daily for the privilege of knowing you.
Thanks for letting us in.
Amy
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