LET LOOSE THE GUNS OF WAR
Peter JamesWell I am not sure if this is good or bad, most likely bad. But it felt good and according to Ms. Crow then it can't be that bad. (don't worry I know, I know) But I had a good proper go of it with the other. I am getting to if not at a point where I really don't care what she thinks so I am not watching my step. I just finally said stuff that I know and think and let loose. No swears though. Even though I think them sometimes. Of course it flew over the head with no impact, but after that happened to my father with her I didn't have much hope for that anyhow. But it is hard not to get caught up in the crazy world you find yourself facing when talking to her.(if you have then you know what I am talking about here) But I made it through. My clarity is much better these days and it is very enjoyable. Looks like I escaped a train wreck there and am very thankful for it.
posted by Peter James at 3:38 PM
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It is a great feeling, standing firm in what you believe to a person that only seem to absorb what they want to hear. Though it wasn't toward Ms. Crow - when I faced my dad - I felt a sense of accomplishment and even strength I didn't know I had. Boy it felt good. Take care LJ
What am I missing? Who is Ms. Crow? Anyhow...I agree with Laura, and she has experienced such people first hand as she began to set very healthy boundaries. Peter I love you and really am sorry you have to go through any of this, but what doesn't kill you apparently makes you stronger? And by suffering a major train wreck, I guess you managed to avoid the biggest train wreck ever seen? I like that you have a blog...good to see a bit inside your head without having to get you drunk /;)
sara
Someone told me about what you had written here so I just had to check it out myself and WOW, this is unreal. I find it quite amusing how you try to portray yourself as such a good, caring person. If only people really knew how you acted when your family isn't around.
"Had a proper go of it", if that's what you call proper then I am shocked. I should have saved everything you said to get some opinions on what "proper" is.
And I'm really getting tired of the "Kate's so stupid and crazy" act. Nothing flew over my head I chose to ignore it because of who it's coming from. I don't have to do and believe everything you say Peter. "It's hard not to get caught up in the crazy world you find yourself facing when talking to her", ya I forgot, I live in a crazy world just because I chose to leave you. I must be crazy!!!
Yes, I left, without any resistance from you Peter. So quit acting like you're so hurt and upset about this when you haven't tried a damned thing to prevent this divorce.
Oh I forgot in case anyone feels the need to email me about this, or anything else, please feel free I would love to hear from you:
katesparrow@hotmail.com
This has been a good blog, a personal insight into how you are doing and what you are thinking. I think it has been healthy. But it is not the venue for two people to confront each other. I suggest using 'comment monitoring' or whatever its called.
So Peter, who is checking your blog that would want Kate to see it? Little strange isn't it? Anyhow, I did write back...not emotionally based just some of my thoughts, hoping not to make things worse, but one never knows...I agree with mom thought, not best place to allow all comments, it isn't being petty, but she could email you or create her own blog...don't want to get petty.
Take care all who read this, :)
sara
Cheryl Crow ... good song sorta.
I wondered when you might let off a little steam Pete. Its gotta come out - I'll be praying that you continue to find helpful, healthy venues. Ways you won't have to regret or apologize for. Oh man there was so much 'steam' built up inside me when I was in the sentencing hearing ... but everything I wanted to shout or do would have landed ME in jail. I know a bit about needing to release anger and yet not knowing how to do it appropriately. No swears though, eh? Not bad. A step in the right direction me thinks.
I love you my brother. I love who you are becoming. None of us do it right all the time.
Oh yeah, I just remembered why that song is good. It says:
"If it makes you happy,
Then it can't be that bad.
But if it makes you happy
then why the hell are you so sad?"
That last bit is so true!
Amy
hi peter i don't know if you got this somewhere else on here but incase not here it is again, i don't know if you remember me or not im jody dyers step daughter i was checking out david an erins blog and saw you on their so i thought i would check it out and see how your doing if you would like to email me my address is red_skittles_turn_me_on@hotmail.com hope to talk to you soon
hi peter i don't know if you got this somewhere else on here but incase not here it is again, i don't know if you remember me or not im jody dyers step daughter i was checking out david an erins blog and saw you on their so i thought i would check it out and see how your doing if you would like to email me my address is red_skittles_turn_me_on@hotmail.com hope to talk to you soon
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