CYCC BLOG

Most of my life I have been told that I speak well and that I am very personable. So you might think that having to do interviews would not be that big of a deal to me. But just like almost everyone else I know, I lack the self confidence that other people might think I have. I was trying to figure out what it was that bothered me so much about interviews. I believe in this case it is the idea that I don't have the knowledge about these types of situations and interviews that is making me doubt myself. However, I realized that I am not suppose to have this knowledge yet and that is what this course is all about. So I have to accept that I don't have control over this situation and just open myself up to the learning aspect and simply do the best job I can. Yes it might be difficult and embarassing, but this is what I want so I have no doubt I will be able to make it through alive.

As far as my communication style goes, I think it really depends on where I am and who I am with. According to the communication quizes we did in class I am an assertive communicator with a little bit of passivness mixed in. But as I thought of what the people who really know me might say about my style if asked, it would most certainly not be passive. I feel I have toned down a lot over the last five or eight years, simply due to maturing and experiences. But I think that I have a lot more agression in my communication with the people who know me well. This is sad really and I would like that to change. Just because you feel safe with someone doesn't mean you should treat them with any less respect, which is what I feel agressive communication is doing. Hopefully I will learn a lot more about that in this course and be able to really apply it in all aspects of my life.