Almost there

Peter JamesNo nothing deep behind the tittle. Just saying it is almost the new year, and I guess I am looking forward to that. It has been a year unlike any other in my life. Well there was one other that was pretty crazy but this is a doozy too. Not all bad by any stretch, but very heavy I would say.
It is almost time to go to Mexico as well. I found out that Phil and I will be going to the El Cid Castilla Beach Hotel in Mazatlan. Never been there, so I like it already. It looks like a pretty sweet place, all inclusive and you get to stay at one play at three. Not too bad at all! I love my job.
Also I wanted to let you know that my exams went really well. I have a 4.0 in one class a 3.7 in another and then a 2.5 in the last. I had a rough start in that one and was behind the whole time, there was something weighing on my mind back at the begining, what was that again? Oh well, it is done and dusted now.
Christmas was nice for me this year. We had mother come and cook us breakfast (see below post) and then after some cleaning Jon and I set of for a jaunt around Princess Island Park. Funny enough we sat right in front of an old crime scene I know all too well. Some sort of engagement happened there last year, I try to block it out. Anyhow, as we were sitting there in the warm sun smoking our pipes, I noticed that we might appear to be quite gay. There were about ten benches there on either side of us and we were sitting shoulder to shoulder both of us with our legs crossed smoking our pipes.Jon suggested that I not cross my legs at the same time as him but that we take turns. No bother, it was a good time of reflection and Philosophy. Then it was off to Laura's for an amazing feast with the rest of the family. I am still full at this moment, thanks Laura and Chalotte (Lauras mamma)
So here is to a good Christmas and looking forward to getting out of this year alive and actually doing very well. Thanks to all friends and family for support and gifts, I love elephants!

Success?

Peter JamesWhat really is success? Is it the big house, money, career? Forget that noise. I say it is knowing what you want to do, doing what you want to do, and being good at what you do. So in that case my mother is one of the most successful people I know. All she ever wanted to do was to get married and be a mother. She did that. And as far as being good at what she does, she is the best mother I know. For a little example here is what she did. She spent several days befor Christmas cooking an amazing amount of food, which I could never get her to tell me what it was for. It turns out that it was for all of us to have precooked meals for a while. Which for me could be the best thing ever. Then on Christmas morning she got up at five thirty and cooked breakfast for Sara's family. Then headed over to Amanda's house and cooked breakfast for her family. Then drove into town and cooked breakfast for Jon and I. She is simply amazing and we love her to death. Thanks mamma.

HERE AND THERE

Peter JamesWell that was quite funny. There was a whole lot of drama going on on my blog and I knew nothing about it. I usually only check my new postings and I had not checked my email in a while so I missed it all. It was very amusing when I found out. So thank you my family for sticking up for me and yourselves, and I don't mind if you use my blog to do it at all. Anyone who knows the whole situation will find it amusing and it will probably just make poeple happy to see that they were right all along, because this stranger is proving our point for us. Who are you anyway, and thanks for taking such an interest in my blog, it makes me feel important.
But anyhow, I now know that I am off to the sea and sun on Jan. 20th. I don't know where exactly but I know it has the ocean and pools and is Spanish speaking. So if that isn't Mexico I don't know what is. Pretty pleased about that, I am not going to lie. But for now I am facing finals which never really stress me out, but they do require attention at least. I have the best marks I have ever had going in, so that is nice. It helps to be studying stuff you are actually interested in for sure. Okay take care and please leave names, it will be more fun that way!

If My Life had a Soundtrack

Peter Jamesput on your music, put it on shuffle, for every question put down the song that is on, for every new question push next. Don't try and be cool and cheat!
Waking up: The sharp hint of new tears (Dashboard Confessionals)
First day of school: Hallelujah (Bob Dylan)
Falling in Love: Everybody hurts (REM) not even joking here!
Breaking up: Pieces (Sum 41)
Prom: Imagine That (LL Cool J)
Lifes Okay: Doing it well (LL Cool J)
Mental Breakdown: Straight Tequila Night ( Brooks and Dunn)
Driving: Mr. Brightside (The Killers)
Flashback: London Bridge (Fergie) I am so embarrassed.
Getting Back Together: How to save a life (The Fray)
Wedding: Sixth Avenue Heartache (The Wallflowers)
Birth of a child: Hey Mamma (Kanye West)
Final Battle: I am a Rock (Simon and Garfunkle)
Death Scene: Gone (Kanye West)
Funeral song: We can Be Heros (The Wallflowers)
End Credits: Mannish Boy (Muddy Waters)

GOOD TIMES

Peter JamesHey, well after all the heavier stuff on here I wanted to add some good news. This weekend has gone very well. It started out with me winning 200$ in a poker game friday night. I have never won more than 7 bucks in a poker game so I was pretty pleased with that. Then on saturday Sara was able to find a buyer for my diamonds. Then I went and saw "Blood Diamonds" with some friends. Hope mine were conflict free. I will make sure next time. (The movie was good) Then I bought a new car, well not new at all, but new to me. It is pretty good, it will have to grow on me a little I think. It was owned by some young punks and looks the part, but I will make it my own.
So I really enjoyed my weekend and wanted to put some nice things on here, so there it is.

WELL NOW

Peter JamesThat last one did a little more than expected. But oh well. I am trying to find that balance of what I can say and what I can't. I have felt that I have been making sure other people (or persons)feelings are okay and not really allowing myself to let loose, as I said. And when I finally do, it all blows up. I feel I have been turning the other cheek over and over, and now they are all gone and I want to just freaking say stuff! You know what I mean? When I think about it now, it goes back to the start of the end back in August. I tried to always do the right thing and you know give in on some things because they weren't that important. But you have to be pretty strong to be able to do that, and maybe I just am not that strong and it is just catching up with me now and I think it is boiling up anger in me. But it would be hard for any of you to tell me that it is not right for me to be angry, just try it anyway. And what is petty? Lets turn some tables and crack some whips man! He didn't rewrite what He said there. It all depends on what music I am listening to when I write though so you can disregard it all maybe.

LET LOOSE THE GUNS OF WAR

Peter JamesWell I am not sure if this is good or bad, most likely bad. But it felt good and according to Ms. Crow then it can't be that bad. (don't worry I know, I know) But I had a good proper go of it with the other. I am getting to if not at a point where I really don't care what she thinks so I am not watching my step. I just finally said stuff that I know and think and let loose. No swears though. Even though I think them sometimes. Of course it flew over the head with no impact, but after that happened to my father with her I didn't have much hope for that anyhow. But it is hard not to get caught up in the crazy world you find yourself facing when talking to her.(if you have then you know what I am talking about here) But I made it through. My clarity is much better these days and it is very enjoyable. Looks like I escaped a train wreck there and am very thankful for it.

GOING SOUTH?

Peter JamesWell I don't want people to get jealous but it looks like I will be heading south in Jan. All inclusive and paid for by My man Philippe's parents. So looking forward to it! let me know how you feel.